are you content?

so finally I slipped back in one of those moods again I was trying to avoid. best will be to hide myself in the bedroom, watching cheesy movies and do nothing but being lazy to get a break from civilization. no text messages, no phone calls, no e-mails.
that happens quite frequently and I never was one of those girls who needed to be surrounded by people all the time. I prefer being alone every once in a while.

so what I wanted to do, is to give a short summary. I developed this strange habit to buy a million face products without hardly using them. I should invest my money in books or something more useful.
I got quite a few mac thingies lately and I have to admit that their powders and blushes are lush. especially my new bronzer (solar riche, style warrior le) is perfect.

not orange, not too dark, just perfect!


also from this le, I got the lustre drops (in pink rebel)wich give that lovely shimmer, quite expensive for such a little amount tho.

as I re-developed another little fandom of mine (won't tell you, too embarrassed), I bought some eyeshadows to create a certain look. those who share the interest will know. what I got is mac eyeshadow in
- girlie
- wedge
- black liquid eyeliner (not for the look tho)
and a new eyeshadow base in light

to complete the list, I also got

which I haven't tried yet but am eager to do on monday.

so this is about it, I don't really have anything to say. have a nice weekend

pictures:
http://www.benefitcosmetics.com
http://www.maccosmetics.de

rambling

oh boy, I am tired. I feel like I need a day to sleep in but there doesn't seem to be one in the near future.
well to keep this short: work was fine. I feel like I have to learn everything in an instant, which is good but exhausting. nevermind, I have this co-worker-girl who thinks she came straight from heaven but I shall not cry about it, because someday it may will be my advantage. I am not able to decide what to think of my other co-workers yet, I have the feeling that there is something cooking behind their blank faces but I don't know what it is yet. but at least I came prepared.

in other news I will see the killers this sunday, which I am very pleased about. I don't even mind going to work on monday because I know it's worth it. good times ahead

and I bought some new stuff which I will review probably tomorrow...have a good weekend

alright, grow up now...or don't

when I was young, I tried to be very grown-up. I tried to speak like my mother and act like my father, I tried to put on make-up which would me look older. I tried to read books adults would read, or at least I assumed that they probably would. I dreamt of my own place, a job, a car and a very neat and organised life.
now I am a little older and my dreams changed. I dream of living my life the way I do now (with a little more money tho). I fear that everything will change soon and I'm not that fond of change most of the time.

I wrote this about a week ago and you see how fast life could change sometimes. now I have a job and probably be moving in september. I shall remember: be careful what you wish for!

a bit of...freedom

so this is it. the very last hours I don't have to worry about anything. unfortunately I had a really bad night because my head wouldn't stop thinking so I could go to sleep. I always had sleeping issues, numerous kinds and quite frequently, this is one of them. sometimes I just can't stop thinking, about the most ridiculous things and when I finally could have managed to sleep my allergy hit me like a bus and I couldn't stop sneezing. very annoying but whatever. I will have another cup of coffee (its's 8am) and then get ready to do some shopping. I may meet an "old" "friend" today but you can never be too sure if she doesn't cancel.

but I'm very looking forward to go the mac counter and grab some new stuff. this is why I stop writing now and tell you later on what I got.

YES

I GOT A JOB!!

stuck in mud

I'm editing this because it could cause me some trouble. reposting some time later tho!

have a great week

feel the summer

oh my! the days have passed again without me noticing.
first of all, I spent a very nice and chilled birthday in april. I refused to go partying or something like that this year, instead I had coffee with my dad (my mom and sister were on a holiday trip) and sushi with bf and bestie+bf. even tho I didn't plan to do a lot, somehow the action didn't stop. a friend came over for the weekend and we had a lovely but strenous party night. which was ok, but I think I'm getting too old for this!
well, I tried to work a bit, so I can get my savings back in order. it is actually working out quite well...until yesterday. until I saw this marvellous bike calling my name. luckily, I'm going to spend the next week in vienna, in order to work, so maybe the obsession has faded by the time I come back. I'm not really looking forward to this week because it's nothing but stress. it would be way nicer to spend time with my sister without working long hours. but well what can you do.
sad but true, there is nothing more to write about. everything seems to flow these days. I constantly have something to do but there is nothing really happening. I don't seem to make any progress and all my good intentions have gone over board.

whatever, I spent my birthday giftcards at marrionnaud's just a week ago. I knew that the mac was releasing a rose romance le on may 1st. I was waiting eagerly for this le because it's just so me. I'm not very keen on too bright colors on my eyes and lips, I'm more of a nude/rosey pink type of girl. It is the only thing which really works with my skin type, I would look ridiculous with sparkling bronzing powder and golden lipgloss on. so well, I decided to buy my first mac lipstick which is absolutely gorgous and just what I was looking for

as you can see, it is a very beautiful light pink which you can wear during the day, without looking stupid.
I also took their beauty powder in summer rose with me

it is a very nice alternative to regular finishing products because you get this healthy rosy glow on your face, even without using blush which is a big plus.
then I bought my second mac eyeshadow in of summer and finally one of the steal my heart lipglasses
.
the gloss works perfect as a topping for the lipstick but also could be used alone. it adds a sparkling touch of pink to your lips.

I guess that's about it, I try just to buy thing which I'm absolutely in love with and cut back on things I only like. even if the products are more expensive, I think quality still rules over quantity.

grey & pink

it felt like my blog needed a make-over, I'm not 100% happy with it but it will do until something better comes to my mind :)



I bought the new syoss hairproducts just yesterday and am eager to try them. I have heard a lot about them and now I wonder if you could really get studio quality for that price. the shampoo and conditioner comes in 500ml bottles and costs about 3,50€, which is an amazing prize! the smell is ok, it doesn't smell as delicious as my beloved herbal essences shampoo but it's ok. talking about hair, if you have slightly dry and stubborn hair, such as I do, I recommend the l'oreal professional playball silky sunrise. the stuff is amazing, it does wonders to my hair.

today I bought the presents for my uncle's birthday tomorrow. it's not the perfect gift as I hope I would find but it is ok and he will be happy anyways. well, he will be probably slightly drunk already as we get there. I am very looking forward to the party because I get to see my whole family again.

april already

first of all I like to say something: if you don't have anything nice or constructive to say, just keep your mouth shut. seriously, who are you people commenting strange and rude stuff on random blogs?! is this giving you some kind of thrill or anything, it's really a pain in the arse to read such comments. thanks.

in other news the days just fly by these days like they's only have 10 instead of 24 hours. but still I am very very happy about the weather, which warms my cold bones. my dad got back from rehab a week ago and is already working 10 -12 hours per day again. he will never get any wiser I guess. I am very looking forward to my uncle's birthday party this friday, he is the coolest uncle you could ever imagine and I am very happy to have him in my family. I learnt so much about music and art from him and he always wears the coolest clothes :D just got to love him

nevermind, some product reviews:

I went to the mac store some time ago in order to buy a new highlighter but what I got is the mac mono eyeshadow in brulé (satin). at first I was a bit disapointed but now I have to admit that I am in love with this color. it's a perfect nude shade and also works very well as basecolor.

dr. hauschka facetonic : good, smells odd tho (like the steam bath)
dr. hauschka rose oil : lush smell

something else I wanted to mention is the latest yves rocher make-up line: couleur nature. so far I own an eyeshadow duo, powder + highlighter and a lipstick. the colors are gorgeous and the price is ok if you ask me. especially their brushes are worth a look, I bought the big powder brush and am very happy with it. I was eyeing with mac powderbrush (49€) but got the yr (10€) instead. the quality is very good, so if you don't want to spend that much money on your brushes have a look.

random update

I just couldn't sleep last night, and when I slept I dreamt about jigsaw-man who killed himself and poured blood all over me. weird stuff. I didn't even watch a horror movie or something.

nevermind, today is sunday and I am planning to pick up my summer clothes. they're still all packed up in moving boxes at my father's house, so I guess it will take some time till I found everything I need. but the weather is getting warmer every day and I desperately need and want some shirts and shoes!!

there is not much other news to tell, I try to work a bit to get some money in order to pay off my debts (dentists I hate you!!! seriously I hate all of you!). everything moves really slowly tho, I can't seem to find a decent job and I'm getting frustrated. but what can you do, I try to do my best, apply for jobs I don't even want just for the sake of doing anything and getting some routine. it's not as easy as I thought it would be. but well what can you do, at least I'm sticking to my working out routine, now I just have to match my eating habits.

nailed!

haha you found me t! you're quite a little sherlock, aren't you?!

for the intention to be told, I had another blog a while ago (a german one) and it was quite personal, at least to me it was and somehow I wasn't really comfortable with it. I knew a certain amount of people read it and I never really knew if I'm cool with it. Well, I have not experienced it myself, but I have seen that these kind of blogs have the potential to do collateral damage. a written word can be like a knife, while a spoken one can be as sweet as sugar. and I noticed that I am also affected reading other very personal blogs from people I know, it's difficult not to see yourself between the typed lines. it's difficult not to be jealous or hurt.
So I decided to keep this one leightweight. fashion, fun, random thoughts and beautystuff. easy literature.
what do you think, is it smart to have a blog you spill your feelings on for everybody out there to read?

Listening to: Empire of the sun: Walking on a dream

a day with doctors

what a day. had a dentist appointment today, it was better than I expected and the pain is bearable. I have to admit though, that my boyfriend is extra nice to me today and I enjoy it.
my only problem is, that the whole procedure will cost me about 200€. I'm also in desperate need of new glasses and contact lenses, so this will be another 400€. this is not good, I will have to resist every single temptation that comes along my way, also will I have to spend this month home, not going to do anything. nevermind, some people buy expensive shoes, I buy a tooth.

Boredom

Still 2 hours to go until I visit bestie for redwine and chickchat but I can't think of anything to do while I'm waiting. So I decided to one of those questionnaires bloggers tend to do quite often

1. When did you get up today?
9:00 am
2. Diamonds or Pearls?
Pearls
3. Last movie you saw?
He's just not that into you
4. Favourite TV-Show?
simpsons, dr. house, scrubs
5. What do you eat for breakfast?
coffee (!!) and a yoghurt or some cereal
6. What's your first name?
cathrin
7. which kind of food do you dislike?
liver, mushrooms
8. Favourite CD at the moment?
Sia - some people have real problems
9. Which kind of car do you drive?
my boyfriend's skoda or my bike lola
10. Favourite Sandwich?
ham, cheese, tomatoes, pepper, cucumber
11. Which character trait do you dislike?
dishonesty
12.Favourite piece of clothing?
my black leather jacket

13 . If you could go anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?
Probably Japan or maybe Australia
14. Which Birthday do you remember?
the last one, 22th. bbq with friends, quite fun
15. What's your favourite kind of sport to watch on TV
Beachvolleyball
16. Day- or Nightperson?
Night
17. What's your shoesize?
37-38
22.Pets?
none yet
18. What's your favourite kind of sweet?
icecream
Favourite Flower?
Lilies
19. What are you listening to right now?
kylie minouge - in my arms
20. Last person you spoke on the phone to?
bestie
21. Favourite Drink?
Caipirinha
22. Summer or Winter?
summer!

this is endless...

23. kiss or hug?
depends
24. chocolate or vanilla?
chocolate
25. coffee or tea?
both
26. What's under your bed
shower gel and sunscreen
27. Sweet or Sour?
Sweet
28. Favourite day of the week?
Saturday
29. How many cities have you lived in?
3

To be continued...

spring

it's march already and I'm 100% positive that spring will be here soon. I can't wait for warmer weather, because warmer weather means no coats and no boots. well I love my black wool coat with the gorgeous big buttons but I've been wearing it for 4 months now, same when it comes to my boots. I've had my black leather riding boots now for 3 years and I still love them but there are plenty of ballet flats, gladiator sandals and summer heels waiting to be worn.

in other news I'm back in my working out routine again. 4 times running a week, it's been quite hard the first few times but I'm getting better again. I'm also trying to eat more healthy and drastically cut down the sweets and sugar.

oh and I desperately want these shoes <3



I guess I will pick them up on tuesday, after that horrible dentist treatment which is waiting for me on monday. I'm also in need of my washing gel (la roche-posay, good stuff if you have very sensitive skin) and toner, this month is the death of my savings.

I don't really have more time right now, but I wish everyone a happy and relaxing weekend.

natalie

I always admired natalie portman, but this is pure inspiration

oscar favourites

Natalie Portman


freida pinto


kate winslet


Anne Hathaway

first job interview

I had my first job interview ever today, it was quite ok. well, to be honest, I don't want the job anyways. the conditions are horrible and the workingplace was frightening. about 10 lawyers who looked like they sold their souls. the place hat literally no soul, everything was neat and clean and white and uncomfortable. well it was practice though and I have another one tomorrow, which I am actually looking forward to.

well afterwards I grabbed this cute organic cotton t-shirt from h&m and a light brown handbag, such as a light yellow blouse for the interview tomorrow.

after the interview I went to visit my dad in hospital (I hate them so much), he is doing quite ok, I think. still in pain and annoyed because he isn't allowed to move much but there is a small chance that he's allowed to go home tomorrow. well, his heart activity won't increase more than 0,5% but at least the constant pain will probably go down a bit, or at least I hope so!

not that exciting

ah well, actually there is not much to blog about. the days come and go and nothing really changes. or at least, there are only bad changes at the moment, it seems that there must be a never ending source of bad news somewhere. my dad is not able to have the bypasses, because it is too risky, but he has a surgery appointment on monday. I don't know much about it, to be honest. I don't know what the whole thing means and what they will do next with him, but I'll drive over for a quick coffee, later that night. (before or after a annoying talk to my sister)

I wrote about 10 job application this week but nothing seems to work out. would have been too easy anyways.

next to that, I have distracted myself with a lot of shopping. now I can add a new dress, a new dandy hat, new underwear, a black pencilskirt, light blue blouse and black bag to my closet. and I'm craving these balett flats



there are also golden aviator sunglasses and a small leopard scarf on my list.

besides that, life is bleh these days

that's it

it's done. moving is done. all my stuff is here now and I'm on my job hunting mission right now. it's been a bad day today, I don't regret my decision to leave everything behind, but I am 100% positive that I will miss my friends a lot. I miss them already. I will miss quite a few things. having coffee with the girls anytime possible, riding our bikes to the lake on sunny days, playing beach volleyball or just the everyday uni life. I feel like I have to grow up right now, but I don't want to.
I'm not ready to grow up yet.

I tell myself, if I can't bare life like it will be, I still can go back an finish uni, it's like a thought I cling to, in order to calm myself down. maybe it's just the stress and the worries about my dad, but right now I would prefer to still live there in that small town, I don't even like that much and study some stupid notes. but it's ok, I can do this.

rough times

Haven’t blogged in ages. I planned to blog quite regularly but there happened so many things, more bad than good ones, lately.

Well first of all we’re moving. Actually I am moving, my boyfriend moved half a year ago but most of his stuff is still in our flat and so we still have a lot to do. I decided a few months ago to go back to my hometown and quit studying. I will get a job, soon hopefully and start all over again. A lot of people, actually just my family are not quite pleased with this decision but it is still my life. In fact just my mom is not pleased, she worries about money too much, but she will get used to it. It was quite hard to tell my friends, some don’t understand why I am leaving, which I can understand and I will miss them too, a lot. But I based my decision on quite a few facts. First of all I am not happy. I lost my heart somewhere on the way, and it seems that the way was just all wrong. I tried to live a happy student life but it didn’t please me so much and I miss my family. Most of all I miss my dad. And there is big reason number too.

My dad is very sick. Very very sick. He had quite a bad heart attack 4 years ago and still suffers a lot because of it. His doctors decided that he will need 7-8 bypasses the very next few weeks. This causes me a lot of worries, the worst I could ever imagine is, if I would lose him. He means the world to me. He is everything. My dad is my world. My dad is the one who always, not matter what I did or wanted, supported me. He always said, I should do whatever makes me happy. And I crave his presence like nothing else. And sometimes I think he needs me as much as I need him and I want to be there for him whenever he needs me. So this is another big part of my decision. Well yeah, so the next week will be hell but I know I will be happy when it’s over and when I can finally start to search for a job and get all things in order.

I wonder why there are so many bad things happening lately, it’s not just me. It’s also the people I know and spend my time with, nobody seems to be really happy. It’s like there is some bad vibe in the air, which is getting on everybody’s nerves. Maybe it’s the weather or the stars, I wonder if everyone is waiting for the sun like me. I can’t wait for warmer weather, the cold and the rain and the fog are quite depressing. I actually like the winter and I love the sound of rain on my windows, especially when I sleep, but this kind of weather taking place now is nothing but uncomfortable and annoying. It’s always cold and wet, the wind takes the little warmth of the sun away and the snow is nothing but brown, disgusting mud on the sidewalk. I shouldn’t complain about the weather, but somehow I’m in such a complain mood today.

Some notes in style to finish with. My plans for this spring/summer are quite simple: floral prints, mille fleur, feminine dresses and skirts, elegant shoes mixed with cool accents like aviator glasses, wooden necklaces, high heels or maybe a leopard print scarf.

That’s it for now, I’m sending good vibes and thoughts to everyone who needs them.